Not at all. Just a feeling of frustration- disbelief, & mabye some anger for the finality of the moment. I wished it were not so, ( I feel like I understand Martha "So Martha said to Jesus: Lord, if you had been here, my brother would not have died")---I feel like God must have turned His eye away, or this would not have happened. All of these senses are internal, never heard anything audible. Dispair, disbelief, sadness I would not wish on any living thing on Earth to feel. Run to the Comforter. The only One who can Comfort you in confusion during grief. Only He can give the clairity of mind to process grief expieriences like these. I just cry out to Him "I am looking for You Father!" He will never let you down. Be well.